The World Was Sinking & I Was Hardly Surprised.
by Star Commander
Manuel Bazaldua
Manuel Bazaldua
Being sad is both loud and fun.
Favorite track: New Jersey.
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Leave Her In America
03:40
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I'm tearing up my room in search of a picture of a girl I will learn to love in my future, she says "it will only tear you to pieces, and when the moon settles you'll dream too big." I swear that one day I'll find my "Maria", and when those stars pick me up, you know I'd leave her in America. And I'll find my place somewhere I shouldn't have been, and I'll turn from happy to that person I've become. They said the Texas sky would hold some nights, and eventually we would all die. But that's alright, I gotta die sometime, till then I'll be just fine.
I told myself there was no other women, and that when Alexandria decided to get herself out from this hole. I'll be there with a rope, ya know, holding and puling up. She said "You need to give up the past and look away from these eyes." The dock swayed and she portrayed the person I needed "I feel in love" then "Virginia" was born in a form of a lost soul. But, I still saw that angel that would become my hearts devil. No, love isn't simple, it's pretty fucking evil. They said the Texas sky would hold some nights, and eventually we would all die. But that's alright, I gotta die sometime, till then I'll be just fine.
She took my cigarettes and I explain that my heart laid with infinity and death will find it's way on to me and I'll stare straight into eternity. And I won't look towards this worn down city in search for that higher being, because when death finds me I'll leave her in the ruins of everything. Yes, when death finds me I'll leave her in the ruins of our America.
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When the End Comes
04:00
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An old man stands there and he begins to say that when a storm comes he dreams of a far off place, saying "I never believed in my mothers bed time stories of heaven, when the end came I was afraid of hell and all of my friends burning" Well, Megan stood there and said that infinity didn't have a place, it's too incomprehensible, so she'll keep the thought out of her way. I walk down the road by the stores - she followed me and told what life was for. "I don't believe much in what people say anymore but I know living is for god and struggles we endure. So ya know by, you better choose a side because it's almost time"
Sometimes, I feel a little anxious and out of place when I hear all those singing boys holding on to their interstates, cause' I'm nowhere near the starting line or finish - I'm too afraid of the guilt and the hearts that would diminish. So I sit in my room thinking about the things I should do and the things that people tell me in order to help me get through. Now, I'm sitting alone hoping to face my soul and the people who I once considered home and they say "we don't believe much in what people say anymore but we know living isn't for god or the struggles he endured, so ya know boy, you better choose a side because it's almost time"
Finally, Haley tells me to get on with my life and get my GED, and I don't know why I don't listen when all of it's in honesty. She says "stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself because when the comes you won't be fulfilled." So I'll stop complaining and feeling sorry for myself because the end does come.
Well, fuck it, let it come!
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It's Down In My Core
03:26
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Well, my heart is all closed and I'm feeling more alone - I can see the difference between you and me. I can feel it in the air, ya know, all that change that I fear. I try to muster all my strength to get out of here. But I'm feeling a little lonely, yeah, no one was to be around me. I'm awkward and I'm learning to be free. I try to pull myself up, yes, I try to believe in love, but the idea is just attacking. So I called up some old friends and told them that I had a place - something to make you all somehow understand. It's not me that wants this, it's the air I breath that makes me feel lifeless, yes, I'm just smashing my fists. And it's a cold night when I can see the air, no, I'm not the only who had a bad year. But my soul is just breaking and I tend to find myself making more bad decisions.
Well, I was a boy before I thought I was poet, and I was poet before I wrote these songs. So I'm writing down my feelings in hopes that I will never find them fleeting, no, I'm just capturing it all in memory. But, according to those singing boys, they are telling me I have a lot to learn and I'm finding that I do have a choice. To hug and not shove all the people that I live - you know it's perfect if it's not corrupt, no, it's all perfect if it's what you love. And it's a cold night when I can see the air, no, I'm not the only who had a bad year. But my soul is just breaking and I tend to find myself making more bad decisions.
Now, I try to follow that line and accept the pain and beauty of this life, but I'm struggling with these wheels that drive my heart to fear this souther blue sky, and I'm telling myself I'm fine. I'm telling myself I'll be alright, no, I told you I'll be just fine. And it's a cold night when I can see the air, no, I'm not the only who wants to get the hell out of here. But my soul is just breaking and I tend to find myself making more bad decisions.
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In Regards
02:18
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Give my regards to the ring, the sound that develops the beautiful things. The chime sounds as I walk into the bar. I'm greeted with Joy as I hear the jukebox sing, I need a drink or some money or something, but give me a few moments please. I'm hunched over bad time and I've reawakened useless feelings, I've got money that can knock away the darkness or something, but at least we can say we are kind of free. I've senses this a long time ago, a fearful feeling of losing all of your hope. Fuck, I wish I was healthy.
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New Jersey
04:00
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Well, I saw change in passing lanes as we drove out of New Jersey - the factories occupied these lost lands. And I felt a sudden shift in my moods as we slowly crossed over the state line, my eyes were glued to smog filled sky.
And I started wondering where you went and where my thoughts had been, but I saw you that night in my dreams. And I saw a tear fall from your eye, I didn't think I could ever understand why we are always in a rush to grow up.
And I saw the yellow lines rapidly turn white as I stared at them from the back seat, the way these roads seem infinite, well, it scares me. And I took caution to this failing future as the words tried to stumble out of my mouth - there are a few reasons I don't think I'll see you again.
And I started wondering where you went and where my thoughts had been, but I saw you that night in my dreams. And I saw a tear fall from your eye, I didn't think I could ever understand why we are always in a rush to grow up.
And I still don't what any of this means, all of these people fighting over a scene, but this music things is really starting to wear me out.
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Daddy
04:16
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And you have to wonder if a lifetime is enough to pass up
When I was a young girl, you were the one that was in love
But, can you blame ourselves for being so self-concious
when all I wanted was to see those cheeks peak and blush.
And maybe, it was a the only thing you could think to do
I'm singing these ghosts to sleep - I've always loved you.
But this night will not be the same as I always remember
that passion bubbling inside of you will be gone, my father.
If I'm reborn a man, could I have helped you with working
Could the words I'd say give you a substantial meaning
'Cause these stars don't have much in common with my future
All I know, is that this light, each year becomes a bit darker.
There was a black corner in my mother's bedroom that night
And these stories of me being born had become a light
A picture, a pause, a time when I was a child in your arms
If only I could be that child that you could keep from harm.
And if heaven isn't a place that opens it's doors to you
I'll gladly let you possess my heart - I'll live for two.
We both know heaven isn't a place that let's our kind in
We'll burn in our passion and declare circumstance a sin.
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I left my head in a Fayetteville cemetery and I lost my lungs on the way back out. These mental images have always been hereditary. God would grant this illness with a sound. Little Em, did you know that this was destiny? The smile on your face and your beautiful words with your heart rate rising so steadily. You better ask him to save before it's your turn to tie your soul into a knot in this cold infinite freeze with a memory you forgot, where your parents will forever be.
As you grow from the ground into the walls of reality you'll find that not everyone can feel free. Keep your feet light and all of your past inside of your steps and let the wind keep you from hating everything, or atleast keep you from hating me.
I broke bread with your savior the other day and we argued the idea of what it was to love. I saw his hands eagerly wanting to save but I denied him his power and I just walked on. Did you know that Jesus was waiting for me behind the corners of these tall walls? And his prayers were never my legacy just some nightmares to help me sing on of a moment in time speaking of my small misery, I can assure you don't want to hear a heart forever bleed.
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I remember when you said "all of the ghosts are dead in this town" - we were traveling in the air by the voice of all of our sounds. We saw the fire take over the sky and the sparks lit up and started July. And then I said to you "Dear Johnston, well, my friends are all demons, and really, I don't know what to do with them. Should I take them one by one and murder all of them? You know, I'd take the light from their eyes."
I remember when you said "all of the ghosts are dead in this town" - we were traveling in the air by the voice of all of our sounds. We saw the fire take over the sky and the sparks lit up and started July. And I asked you "Dear Mother, do you think, well, my heaven exists? If I take the easy way out could I still find it? Or will this burn me forever?" I keep forgetting to make myself remember that I am not a child!
Oh, Dear God, I use to write you a letter every night before I went to bed, but now my thoughts are trapped in limbo with all the chracters inside of my head. They scream to you every night for all the pain you've caused them. Oh, Dear God, I use to love you more than life but I'm sorry, I've fled (you are dead).
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credits
released July 5, 2011
Alex Atchley: Recording, mixing, infinite patience
Michael Dufault: Mastering
Max Creed: Graphic design, CD layouts, creative tornados
Stephen Petrey: Front cover painting
Olivia Themudo: Photography
The band:
Christian Medrano - Guitar, vocals
Donovan Ford - Bass
Ryan Schefsky - Drums
watch the band recording this at: youtu.be/891wlwPX6c0
Alex Atchley: Recording, mixing, infinite patience
Michael Dufault: Mastering
Max Creed: Graphic design, CD layouts, creative tornados
Stephen Petrey: Front cover painting
Olivia Themudo: Photography
The band:
Christian Medrano - Guitar, vocals
Donovan Ford - Bass
Ryan Schefsky - Drums
watch the band recording this at: youtu.be/891wlwPX6c0
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Jul 2011 -
Feb 2010
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